Who's driving the bus?

I am becoming more and more aware of the dichotomy in my own mind.

In the red corner we have the emotional brain. It wants to drive the bus all day long. And if no one else steps up, thats what happens. All day long I judge, criticize, fear, dread, escape, avoid, and skim - all saturated in your very basic and ubiquitous suffering.

And in the blue corner, representing the very latest in human evolution, is the mindful brain. Now this is the real deal - this brain is self-aware. Awareness that has become aware of itself. And while there are some deep questions that remain unanswered, this is the brain that more and more often takes over the wheel of the bus. It is also petitioning to become my designated bus driver.

And while the mindful brain has all my support, I often wonder whether this whole circus is yet another delusion. Perhaps. Cause we cant really know, now can we? It seems there are questions that we not only have no answers to, but may also not be able to arrive at.

And it is critical that we accept this. If there is any chance we can transcend our daily suffering and find some peace of mind, we need to let go and accept that some questions will remain unanswered. And so the struggle continues.. I accept my emotional brain, but I deliberately choose to be more mindful. This is wide and deep enough to be explored well into my senile years.